Today is the day I get my CT Scan results, Only one day since the scan made me feel nervous, At least Michelle could sit in with me while the consultant and a Stoma nurse are also in attendance.
The Consultant sits me down and this is when my whole life changes & comes crashing down around me, I can't believe what I'm been told.
" I'm so sorry but it's stage 4 Bowel Cancer that has also spread to your liver, It's also incurable because it's spread itself all over your Liver".
I'm in disbelief, I can't talk, I can't cry and I can't fathom out how it got to this point.
Michelle is in tears repeating no no no, This can't be happening, It's not real.
All the consultant can say is how sorry he is and how this must have come as an almighty shock to me and that I couldn't have done anything differently, I did every I could as soon as symptoms showed.
I'm told an MDT team will be set up to decide what course of action will be taken. The first thing mentioned was Chemotherapy which fills me with terror, It's becoming real so fast and I haven't processed everything. I just want this tumour out of me. "Please give me a fighting chance".
Me & Michelle are taken to a separate room so we can be together but it's more just too hold each other and cry our hearts out after what we've just been told.
After a few minutes gathering ourselves together we leave the Hospital waiting for my parents to pick us up. They drive round to the pick up point, When I spot them I can't contain my tears and breakdown and tell them the news.
They can't believe it, I don't think ever in a million years they thought this could happen to their eldest son.
The drive home to me just seems unreal, I can't even remember talking or whether it was just tears all the way home.
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